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From now on, friends only entries, with probably the occasional certain friends only entries. Or maybe one day I might be nice and have a public entry.
HOW JIE LIN GO GET AN ACCOUNT. :)
Unlocked, for Amy. |
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| This is what stress does to you when your exam is in 31 hours and you have 13 chapters to go. |
[Nov. 16th, 2009|02:13 am] |
YOU KNOW WHAT. Screw Economics Honours. If I'm smart enough then I'll get it. Because it's no use being so stressed like this just to live up to Daddy's expectations. I wanna do a postgrad in media and not econs honours and at this point in time when I'm close to tears and nothing's going in, ECONOMICS HONOURS, YOU CAN KISS MY ASS. EIGHTY PERCENT TO GET IN?!?! EIGHTY?! WHO AM I KIDDING. I AM HUMAN, NOT AN ECONOMICS ROBOT.
God help me. |
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| Take you home. |
[Nov. 10th, 2009|12:48 am] |
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!! a1, the band that my preteen years was revolved around, have reunited for their 10 year anniversary! You have NO IDEA how highly anticipated this is! It feels like looking back on an ex-lover. HAHAHA. Ben looks so much uglier now that he is older and without his signature hairdo, but wow. I MISSED THEM.
AND!!!!
I LOVE CATS!!!!
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| Depth. |
[Nov. 8th, 2009|01:46 pm] |
Especially in this period in time, I need a little help to keep my head afloat. With exams looming and life not being very smooth, sometimes you need a little faith in the world.
I've never been one for nature and flowers, but whenever I'm having a bad day, I walk through school with this by my side, I've found something that makes me feel more at peace.
Along Physics Road
Purple jacarandah trees. An absolutely amazing sight. Most of them are completely purple, the flowers dominate the entire tree with only a few sparse leaves in sight.
View from my window. Right now it has blossomed more and it looks so much prettier than when I took this. (If you see a window with red-ish curtains, that's Taufiq's room! Heh.)
This is what I see whenever I walk home, along Carillon Avenue.
There was one that was pink that was in one of the colleges that bloomed as winter was ending, but I didn't get a chance to get a picture of it.
This one is in the quadrangle in uni (which wasn't taking by me obviously).
There's a superstition in Sydney Uni, in which that if students haven't started studying for the exams by time the jacarandah tree in the quad blooms, basically they're screwed and are going to fail. HAHA. Well I've only started buckling down to studying yesterday, and I'm going to prove the myth wrong. Hopefully. But hey, I've been struggling with a 3500 word report in the past week, so cut me some slack! I've never written that many words in my life. Heh.
Anyway, good luck everyone with your exams! Have faith, keep calm and confident and press on. Before you know it, it's over and done with. :) |
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| Can you smell it? |
[Nov. 5th, 2009|08:38 pm] |
On July 31st, I found out my grandaunt passed away. I wrote this in a private blog entry, "Within a year since I've came here to Sydney, I've lost three relatives...2009 has taken away too many people. But please, please God, stop. I don't know if I can handle one more."
Unfortunately, it didn't stop.
Nicole's death left me absolutely distraught after that. Admittedly, I wasn't close to her and the devastation was not entirely because she was gone. There was just so many issues and things I couldn't comprehend about the entire situation. I have a huge huge phobia of death, more specifically I'm afraid of dying. And for someone with so much potential and so much to look forward to, to willingly take her life was beyond me.
And now, Uncle Tung. He was my favourite uncle. We weren't close, and I didn't know a lot about him, but from what I do know, I respect so much. I used to be so proud of him because he was a policeman. He had built up his home with his own two hands; from doing the carpentry, to painting, to tending the garden, to carpeting the floors. His home was beautiful. He used to tell me stories about life. I can't remember any because I was so small, but I remember listening intently with Snoopy, his dog, resting between us. I remember in primary 4 we had some botanist project, and he helped me with it, and he explained the concept of shadows and the sun's position to me. I don't even know how that relates to plants, but it doesn't matter anymore.
I came back during the mid-semester break in September to see him. I didn't want to come back at first. I wanted to go to Port Stephens with Ben, Nicholas and Germaine to slide on sand dunes and watch dolphins and ride horses. Then I heard that he was sick. Reluctantly, I told Ben and Nic I couldn't go.
It was really weird to go back to Malaysia. We used to go every CNY, but somehow after I met Ryan, I never went back anymore. I haven't seen my relatives for 3 years. You have no idea how glad I am that I went back. I selfishly didn't want to go down to Malaysia for CNY this year, and my grandfather passed away 3 months after that. There's a similar story with my other grandfather as well. The guilt is terrible, and I'm so relieved that there isn't much this time around. I did wish I got to see Uncle Tung more (he was always sleeping or at the hospital), but at least I was there.
It used to bewilder and upset me that there were so many deaths all of sudden. But I realised that this is just a byproduct of an ageing population. More elderly, more deaths. But it gets so disillusioning. I don't even say RIP anymore. I don't even know what it means anymore.
I'm not really okay right now, but I know everything will be fine with time. It's just that everything is so amplified when you're away. It is FIVE people's funerals that I couldn't attend. It is FIVE people I didn't get to say my final goodbyes to. You grieve alone. No one here (maybe except Teresa) is really close enough to care. You can't be with your family and make sure that the people around you are alright.
But it's the 5th time I'm doing this, I'll be up and dandy soon enough.
And as Maxine says, it's the fourth to go this year, and hopefully it's the last. |
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| Stop destroying our planet, it's where I keep all my stuff. |
[Oct. 20th, 2009|10:44 pm] |
"It's a sad commentary on the morality of our civilisation that we devote more of our resources to development and deployment of sophisticated weaponry and killing power than on meeting the humanitarian and social needs of people and protecting the environmental visibility of our planet."
-Maurice Strong
AMEN. |
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| BECAUSE I AM JEALOUS MY SISTER GOT TO GO. |
[Oct. 6th, 2009|01:39 am] |
I have a new life goal, and that is to go see the Pieta before I die.
In my opinion, one of the most intensely beautiful pieces of art ever. Such a simple depiction, not even with colour, but so intricate and has such a powerful meaning behind it. |
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| Wisdom. |
[Sep. 20th, 2009|01:52 pm] |
"You want things, but you cannot have them, so you are ready to kill; you strongly desire things, but you cannot get then, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have what you want because you do not ask God for it. And when you ask, you do not receive it, because your motives are bad; you ask for things to use for your own pleasures."
-James 4:2-3 |
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| WE ARE GOLDEN. |
[Sep. 16th, 2009|03:53 pm] |
CAN YOU BELIEVE THE AMOUNT OF TALENT AND CREATIVITY FROM 3 BARELY 18-YEAR OLDS?!?!?!
WATCH OR DIE. Because one of them is related to me! |
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| OH DADDY. |
[Sep. 8th, 2009|03:08 am] |
My sister just called me, and in a frustrated tone, she told me that my dad has been complaining to my mum about me. You see, I have my father on facebook (I KNOW, HOW UNCOOL.) and apparently he was saying that he saw something on my profile where I fought with Ryan and I said some things that I shouldn't be saying because facebook is public and etc etc.
My sister then told me that she then proceeded to my profile to look for whatever that he was talking about, but couldn't find anything.
Upon hearing this, I immediately stopped everything and went on my profile. I had no idea what my dad was talking about either. Because I haven't been fighting with Ryan recently, nor would I even put such a thing if I even fought with him.
So, on I went and I concluded this was what caused the entire nonsense:
Today Ryan told me that he loves me more than DotA. I don't know if I should laugh or cry.
UUUUUUUUURGH. DADS. He doesn't know what DotA is. -_- |
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| Daughters will love like you do. |
[Sep. 7th, 2009|01:02 am] |
Every time I really have a good conversation with Mummy, I feel like crying. Her health always worries me. I still want her to be there long after I graduate. I want to give her the Lamborghini I promised her. I want to see Italy and France with her. I want her to be there when I get married and have children.
I asked her just now if she can live 10 more years and she told me she doesn't know. I still remember the time when I was 15 and the doctor told her that she had 10 more years. That year, I developed a mild eating disorder.
It's so scary to think of what I might do if she goes. I CANNOT live without my mum. She means far too much. She is the solid foundation in my life.
God, you CANNOT take her away from me. Please. Just don't. Not for a very long time, at least. Please. |
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| If I could take your love with me. |
[Sep. 1st, 2009|02:07 am] |
Thank you Stephany Aw for helping me find a new way to procrastinate. Today, instead of doing any work whatsoever, I stayed home and played my beautiful ukulele the entire day. Whenever I pick it up, it's so hard to put down.
And especially after the weekend I had, full of alcohol and craziness, it's so nice to relax and rejuvenate by playing some happy, gorgeous tunes.
I LOVE YOU, UKULELE.
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| Meow. |
[Aug. 17th, 2009|03:27 am] |
Last night my cat was sitting on my lap as I watched TV, I'm a little allergic so I sneezed and it unfortunately went on her, she lept off my knee looking disgruntled. This morning I woke to find her sitting on my chest, just as I opened my eyes she sneezed in my face and then walked away. Well played cat. MLIA
HAHAHAHAHA SO CUTE AND CLEVER. :D :D
I want a cat SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADLY. |
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| OMG SCANDAL. |
[Aug. 17th, 2009|01:55 am] |
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Don't pick up convent girls; you never know where they've been. |
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| It's so funny, in a rich man's world. |
[Aug. 11th, 2009|11:13 pm] |
[ Francesca ] Fight the break of dawn. says:
OMG
[ Francesca ] Fight the break of dawn. says:
my friend just turned 21 and her bf got her christian louboutins!
[ Francesca ] Fight the break of dawn. says:
AND he flew all the way here TOO
Teeee says:
ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS
Teeee says:
is your friend sgporean?
Teeee says:
she is damn freaking LUCKY MANNNN
Teeee says:
i want a bf like that too
[ Francesca ] Fight the break of dawn. says:
YES SINGAPOREAN
[ Francesca ] Fight the break of dawn. says:
aim to get a rich bf before your 21st OKAY
[ Francesca ] Fight the break of dawn. says:
HAHA
Teeee says:
HUHHH
Teeee says:
but then all the singaporean boys i know will be studying here!
Teeee says:
then i wont get to experience the feeling of em flying over to vist!
Teeee says:
):
[ Francesca ] Fight the break of dawn. says:
you find one in the 3 months you go back
[ Francesca ] Fight the break of dawn. says:
HAHA
Teeee says:
HAHAHAHHAHA
Teeee says:
go where to find
Teeee says:
walk arnd orchard
Teeee says:
and go,
Teeee says:
"eh, you rich not? be my boyfriend?"
Teeee says:
hahahahha
[ Francesca ] Fight the break of dawn. says:
WHY NOT |
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| Because depression is the latest fashion. |
[Jul. 22nd, 2009|12:36 am] |
I never see that prettiest thing-
A cherry bough gone white with Spring-
But what I think, "How gay 'twould be
To hang me from a flowering tree."
-Dorothy Parker
It's always so difficult to leave you. |
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| WHAT THE HELL. |
[May. 9th, 2009|02:36 am] |
Gunners fan hangs himself after United victory May 6, 2009
An Arsenal fan hung himself following his team's 4-1 aggregate drubbing by arch-rivals Manchester United in the Champions League semi-final, police said.
Arsenal lost 3-1 to United in the second leg of their semi-final tie.
Suleiman Alphonso Omondi, a 29-year-old Kenyan living in the capital Nairobi's Embakasi neighbourhood, hanged himself in his Arsenal shirt after the match.
"We were watching the match at Bamba 70 pub, and when Arsenal was defeated, Suleiman just walked out in protest and he was crying," Calvin Otieno, one of his friends, said.
"We didn't know he was going to hang himself until this morning when we received the reports and came here to find his body at the balcony," Otieno said outside the deceased's home.
Arsenal slumped to a 3-1 defeat at home in the second leg of the Champions League semi-final, capping a disappointing season for the Gunners who were already out of the Premier League title race early in the season.
-ESPN
OMG. What is wrong with people. |
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| I can do anything I want, because I look good in leather! |
[Mar. 25th, 2009|11:43 pm] |
I really can't believe I missed Christina's party. :(
I love Fugly and I miss them very much. And this picture makes me happy because getting the Fuggs to town (for reasons besides clubbing) is virtually impossible (without anyone driving some more!), let alone to a restaurant, and yet they're there for me. AWWWWWWWWWWWW.
Clearly I'm trying to feel better about not celebrating Christina's birthday, so let me be okay!
Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINA!!! Treasure being 18 years old, it's the best time of your life everrrrr, for suuuuuure. LOVE YOU!!!!! We are SO going to have a Fugg's girls' night out when I get back!
Let me just say that JAY IS THE BEST. EVEEEEEEEER. BECAUSE WE ARE GOING TO MANLY ON FRIDAY TO LEARN TO SURF, all courtesy of her!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH BETTY HOW JIE LIN FOR FULFILLING ONE OF MY THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Soon we'll be hot surfer chicks. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. Love you love you LOVE YOU!!!! |
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| Quick update on the way to work with Nokia wifi. |
[Jan. 19th, 2009|11:37 am] |
1) I got a job a little while back. I didn't realise the commitment it needed when I took it. But I really like it there. I'm gonna have to quit soon on the account of me wanting to enjoy the rest of my holidays, but I'm really sad to leave. Plus all the yummy perks! Aargh.
2) I also got eyelash extensions on a whim. @#$%?*@#!/ It was so bloody uncomfortable. I don't know how ah lians do it, but oh maaan. The things people do for beauty.
3) I don't what it is about Aussies, but why do they only seem attractive when outside of Australia? Once back in the motherland, it's like, URGH. Not attractive. |
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